Annie...
At the time of joining college.I had never failed in any examinations,never had girl friends,even smell of beverages made me vomit.I always felt pity for long queue in front of BEVCO.Had a pact with my best friends that we won't drink at any circumstances.My friends were always with me ,they were my first priority.semesters passed...things turned upside down...Actually no: of semesters were inversely proportional to my performance,character etc.I got supplies in the first year itself.I was screwed in graphics and mechanics.Do you know some thing,PTA meetings are the most powerful tool for harassment.Relationship with my parents was weakening.At last 'IT' happened.I too fell in love.Priorities changed from my friends to her.I always found time for her.I began to spend less time with my friends.
I felt something special about this girl.She wasn't my lover,but we talked for hours in the phone.She wasn't my sister,still the care was same.She made me feel easy when i failed each time in exams.one day ,as usual in girl-boy friendship stories,things changed.We became total strangers.I couldn't bear the pain.Vodka with lemon and chillies became my favorite drink.. Chilled Beer replaced drinking water when i felt thirst... [Warning: Alcohol Consumption Is Injurious to Health ;)]. became a regular Smoker .. Kings or Lights lighted my brain .. [Warning: Smoking Kills Memory Cells ;)].cigs and bottles helped to forget everything for at least a short while, and it deepened my relationship with them.. Relationship status: In a Relationship with 'cigs n bottles'...
I think now you get it.I was neck deep in shit.There was this girl,anie who changed my life up side down.She was my one of my friends.Don't know whether i could call her friend because I often flirted with her, said bad comments about her with my friends and never returned any money i borrowed from her :).She was tall,cute and smart.she was the last one i expected to be around me at harsh times. It was last year,7th semester.Every one was going crazy about placements and stuff.
Things changed suddenly.No one cared about others.With the grace of god I had 7 supplies by that time.One day when i was watching movie in my lap my phone rang,It was annie.She asked me to join Infosys training program.Only thing I could say to her was to fuck off.Well the thing was she didn't fuck off!. Instead she kept on calling me.At last I agreed on one condition which was to get introduced to her awesome and cool friend tressa.Her friends called her little tressa and we boys called her slutty tressa.She did kept her word ;) .I attended training program with her.Later i came to know she paid for it,which as usual I never returned.
cigs n bottles had really changed me.I had lot of guts or it gave me an extra pair of 'balls'.They grouped students in to different batches and i was elected as leader of my batch.Off course anie was the wise captain.I really enjoyed working with her.Since i was the leader I often have to gave speeches in behalf of my group.As days passed I realized I was really good at expressing my Ideas and coordinating group activities.Training ended.Our group was 12th among 24 groups.I thought I may get elected as best leader but i didn't.Later when I told this to annie she laughed her ass off. You know that training brought my self confidence back.
I got faith that I can pass all supplies.As Theodore Roosevelt said Believe you can and you're halfway there.The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.I wrote my supplies along with my sem 6 examinations.some were tough and some were easy.As time passed my relationship with anie grew stronger and stronger.I started talking with my ex-girlfriend .I learned When someone tells me "no," it doesn't mean I can't do it, it simply means I can't do it with them.I usually made fun of my nerdy friends
but they never had tried to convince me that they were doing it in the right way because when one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. Because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. Because one accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her.Days passed results were out I had passed 6 supplies and still had one back paper.My s6 results were good.Since I had one back paper,I couldn't attend placement programs.Still I was happy but anie was not.She got placed in Infosys but opted not to go for it.She choose to go to hydrabad and prepare for Gate.
By that time I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because she was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together(from Blue-Eyed Devil,My favorite quote ;) ).I was not sure what annie was to me but i really liked her.She had always told me that she would say something special to me on her farewell day.Fair well day arrived there were hugs,kisses,tears every where.I was really excited.No offense I had almost guessed she would say I love you.I was on my best dress.I spent hours in front of mirror.
At last the moment arrived.We sat together.Their was a long awkward silence.She gave me a photo.It was my friend Ajay.He was not my best friend,he was not even my friend, guess he lived in the same hostel.she said that she loved him.I asked whether he knows about this.she said no.Tears filled my eyes but i smiled and said her to express her love to him.Actually none of this never happened but it was the right thing to do.Guess we all make mistakes.When she said she loves ajay.I couldn't take it.I didn't even said bye to her.Instead like a coward i stormed off.I never tried to call her.Couple of times she tried to contact me but i never responded.5 years passed I started a small firm called techsolution which was not going bad.From some of her friends I heard that she now teaches
in university college.Yesterday after long 5 years there was a call from annie.Today is her marriage.I am now on the way to her marriage.You can't force love, I realized. It's there or it isn't. If it's not there, you've got to be able to admit it.The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me annie. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever.You will always be in my heart,annie.Always.....
At the time of joining college.I had never failed in any examinations,never had girl friends,even smell of beverages made me vomit.I always felt pity for long queue in front of BEVCO.Had a pact with my best friends that we won't drink at any circumstances.My friends were always with me ,they were my first priority.semesters passed...things turned upside down...Actually no: of semesters were inversely proportional to my performance,character etc.I got supplies in the first year itself.I was screwed in graphics and mechanics.Do you know some thing,PTA meetings are the most powerful tool for harassment.Relationship with my parents was weakening.At last 'IT' happened.I too fell in love.Priorities changed from my friends to her.I always found time for her.I began to spend less time with my friends.
I felt something special about this girl.She wasn't my lover,but we talked for hours in the phone.She wasn't my sister,still the care was same.She made me feel easy when i failed each time in exams.one day ,as usual in girl-boy friendship stories,things changed.We became total strangers.I couldn't bear the pain.Vodka with lemon and chillies became my favorite drink.. Chilled Beer replaced drinking water when i felt thirst... [Warning: Alcohol Consumption Is Injurious to Health ;)]. became a regular Smoker .. Kings or Lights lighted my brain .. [Warning: Smoking Kills Memory Cells ;)].cigs and bottles helped to forget everything for at least a short while, and it deepened my relationship with them.. Relationship status: In a Relationship with 'cigs n bottles'...
I think now you get it.I was neck deep in shit.There was this girl,anie who changed my life up side down.She was my one of my friends.Don't know whether i could call her friend because I often flirted with her, said bad comments about her with my friends and never returned any money i borrowed from her :).She was tall,cute and smart.she was the last one i expected to be around me at harsh times. It was last year,7th semester.Every one was going crazy about placements and stuff.
Things changed suddenly.No one cared about others.With the grace of god I had 7 supplies by that time.One day when i was watching movie in my lap my phone rang,It was annie.She asked me to join Infosys training program.Only thing I could say to her was to fuck off.Well the thing was she didn't fuck off!. Instead she kept on calling me.At last I agreed on one condition which was to get introduced to her awesome and cool friend tressa.Her friends called her little tressa and we boys called her slutty tressa.She did kept her word ;) .I attended training program with her.Later i came to know she paid for it,which as usual I never returned.
cigs n bottles had really changed me.I had lot of guts or it gave me an extra pair of 'balls'.They grouped students in to different batches and i was elected as leader of my batch.Off course anie was the wise captain.I really enjoyed working with her.Since i was the leader I often have to gave speeches in behalf of my group.As days passed I realized I was really good at expressing my Ideas and coordinating group activities.Training ended.Our group was 12th among 24 groups.I thought I may get elected as best leader but i didn't.Later when I told this to annie she laughed her ass off. You know that training brought my self confidence back.
I got faith that I can pass all supplies.As Theodore Roosevelt said Believe you can and you're halfway there.The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.I wrote my supplies along with my sem 6 examinations.some were tough and some were easy.As time passed my relationship with anie grew stronger and stronger.I started talking with my ex-girlfriend .I learned When someone tells me "no," it doesn't mean I can't do it, it simply means I can't do it with them.I usually made fun of my nerdy friends
but they never had tried to convince me that they were doing it in the right way because when one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. Because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. Because one accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her.Days passed results were out I had passed 6 supplies and still had one back paper.My s6 results were good.Since I had one back paper,I couldn't attend placement programs.Still I was happy but anie was not.She got placed in Infosys but opted not to go for it.She choose to go to hydrabad and prepare for Gate.
By that time I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because she was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together(from Blue-Eyed Devil,My favorite quote ;) ).I was not sure what annie was to me but i really liked her.She had always told me that she would say something special to me on her farewell day.Fair well day arrived there were hugs,kisses,tears every where.I was really excited.No offense I had almost guessed she would say I love you.I was on my best dress.I spent hours in front of mirror.
At last the moment arrived.We sat together.Their was a long awkward silence.She gave me a photo.It was my friend Ajay.He was not my best friend,he was not even my friend, guess he lived in the same hostel.she said that she loved him.I asked whether he knows about this.she said no.Tears filled my eyes but i smiled and said her to express her love to him.Actually none of this never happened but it was the right thing to do.Guess we all make mistakes.When she said she loves ajay.I couldn't take it.I didn't even said bye to her.Instead like a coward i stormed off.I never tried to call her.Couple of times she tried to contact me but i never responded.5 years passed I started a small firm called techsolution which was not going bad.From some of her friends I heard that she now teaches
in university college.Yesterday after long 5 years there was a call from annie.Today is her marriage.I am now on the way to her marriage.You can't force love, I realized. It's there or it isn't. If it's not there, you've got to be able to admit it.The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me annie. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever.You will always be in my heart,annie.Always.....
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